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Greetings One and All. This is my ideal place to live for the rest of my life. Sun, sand and water. This place looks like Fiji. Oh to have a place like this! I want to go!
| Old Friend Returns |
| 04.25.06 (4:40 pm) |
| I like the new style of this Tblog. It will take some time to get use to it. There is much to tell. But not enough time. I hope to post something this weekend. Cheers! |
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| Too Much Time Has Passed |
| 01.04.06 (8:05 pm) |
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Greetings once again. I've been too mentally tired to write anything in months. My bf finally went back to work. Which is great, BUT since he can not return to his normal job, they have stuck him at a desk. According to his companies policy of disability, one an employee returns to work but can not fufill his/her normal duties. They have 3 months in which the employee needs to apply to positions available within the company. If they can not find employment, this company has the right to terminate the employee. Well isn't that icing on the cake. He's been back for almost 2 months. Has applied to almost every posting, and still nothing. I feel like I'm lost. I've lost all faith/hope/life. I am disgusted with the way I look, so I am DESPERATELY trying to fix that. If I want to meet new people, I have to have a better out look on life, not to mention have a better physical form. Because it's total bullshit when people say, it doesn't matter how one looks! I find men attractive of all shapes and size, but when it comes to men wanting women,, they want someone with a nice body,, not two bodies in one! My own boyfriend blantantly looks and comments about other women, Gee and he wonders why he ain't getting any from me! I'm getting mad, and I'm tired, I'll try to write more later.
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| Update |
| 08.01.05 (5:14 am) |
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Here it goes: Still no money, he's not back to work. Don't know when he will go back. Still no "closeness". He is treating situations a bit better. But still not happy. Still lonely. The relationship isn't bad but in the same, it isn't good. I keep dreaming about two old friends. It keeps me up at night. Sleep deprivation is making nuts. Where the hell is my Hero? |
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| Bloody MAD I am |
| 06.29.05 (7:23 am) |
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So here's the update. Nothing exciting and nothing really new. I'm still in a funk. And my boyfriend is getting worse. WORSE! you ask? He's becoming more and more an inconsiderate selfish ass. Back in the beginning of May his credit card company increased his limit by 2500 dollars!. A heck of a lot of money, especially when you're income has dropped by 40% due to disability. He said he was going to be cautious with this. We had decided to by a new small upright freezer for $380. Okay we really needed on because the one we have is tiny. My Birthday was also in May. He had asked me what my preferred ring size was, necklace length and bracelet length. Ok, I wasn't expecting much, Maybe flowers. SO, my boyfriend in a matter of 3 and a half weeks proceeded to speed his ENTIRE increase on his credit card. Besides the freezer that we both agreed on, He bought a digital camera, printer, battery power back up for his computer, a used motorcycle, booze, and took a cash advances totaling $1000. ON MY BIRTHDAY, what did I get? a homemade birthday card. I even made my own dinner!! On top of that he spent too much money that I had to make the June rent in two payments. As well not too mention not get the desperately needed oil change for my car, hair cut ($20 no more than that), and the full grocery shopping. AND NOW his birthday is coming up in 2 weeks and he needs to have an emitions test for his car, his bike and car need the renewal sticker. Totaling $170. Does he have this money? NO. I am soooooooo pissed off at him. STILL a month later. And all he does is complain that he has no money to go anywhere!! The NERVE!! I reminded him that he "didn't think of the consequences of spending all that money. YOU said YOU were going to save it for emergencies." And now that he has no money and I am trying to keep bills paid, he's mad at me for not paying his credit card bill!! Where the FUCK does he get off? His attitude is getting worse and I can't wait till my lease is up, He's then on his own. I love him, but after all that I have done and the crappy way he's treating me, I'd rather be alone and would probably be happier. He just doesn't think about anyone else but himself. And he wonders why he doesn't have many friends. Thank God I'm prepared to let this relationship go. Just think people, this is just a little bit of what I have to go through everyday! |
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| Life In General |
| 05.25.05 (7:49 am) |
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Well another week has come and gone. Well actually two, since I've posted anything. My BF behaved himself at his Friday the 13th party. It was cold cold cold. But he survived. My birthday is in 4 days. The last time I checked my age, I was 26.. now 31 (almost) where the hell did the past 5 years go? I 've noticed that the older I get, the faster time seems to go by. I'm still single.But I'm accepting that. All my other friends are married, getting married and having kids. I know I sound like a broken record, but were are all the good men gone? It's funny. All my my past serious ex's are now married. The next girl they met after me, they married. And apparently there is an uncanny resemblance between me and them. I think that's scary. If I'm going to "train" men for marriage, I should charge them a fee and make a career out of it! :D I'm hoping that this summer I will put myself first and enjoy what is offered out there. We'll see, I'll keep you all posted. |
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| Friday, Hmmmm |
| 05.13.05 (5:14 am) |
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Greetings one and all. I haven't posted anything as of late because I've been okay with life. I find I write when things really tick me off. Not to say that I'm ticked off now. I'm not, well maybe a bit but overall more tired. My best friend and his wife are having their first baby today. And just 3 weeks ago another friend of mine had their first child. I could tell you more friends of mine that have decided to help populate this earth over the past few months, but I won't. Too many. It seems that I'm the last one. But I don't want kids. Everyone knows that. I'm okay with it. But I just want to get married. And it's pisses me off that I'm not. I barely have a functional relationship at the best of times. Which I guess that brings me to my next bit of info. It's Friday the 13th, duh. And every Friday the 13th in a place called Port Dover Ontario, Canada, Thousands of motorcyclists show up. They take over the town for one day. They park their bikes on the side of the road and it turns into a huge "show off my bike and look at others event" My bf goes every year, rain or shine. He normally brings a few friends and his brother. But this year he's all alone. Which concerns me. He seems to see this event as a day to get out and try to get laid. I kid you not! It only happened once, well before he and I ever met him. He really fell hard for a girl in such a short time, but it turned out she was more screwed up than a chameleon on a kilt! Since then he has always compared all of his girlfriends to her. Which makes me think he’s more screwed up than I thought. This is a big thing for me, to try to trust him at this event. My stomach is all in knots wondering if he will stay on the beaten path or wonder off. I know it’s something I have to work with. But it greatly concerns me. I want to be able to trust him. We will see what happens when he gets back tomorrow. GOD I hate feeling this way. |
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| It's Official. I'm Sick |
| 04.26.05 (9:09 am) |
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:( I hate HATE HATE head colds. I think they are worse than the flu. I can take something for that. My head cold is soo bad that I can't focus on one thing. As I write this I am having a hard time seeing the computer screen because my eyes are watering so much. I my nose looks like I'm the offspring of Rudolph. People at work can see that I'm sick and like to point out how crappy I look. NO shit buckwheat! I know I look like crap! Try feeling the way I do. I've missed too much work already due to gall bladder surgery and the complications from that. But I think I will have to miss a few more hours. I don't think I'll make it through the rest of the day. I should be out of here by 2 pm. Looking forward to "drugs" and sleep. * sniffle sniffle* |
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| Mondays.. LA LA LA |
| 04.25.05 (5:22 am) |
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Well another weekend has come and gone. Pretty uneventful. But I was able to go see a couple of my dearest friends. I just wish I was feeling better. I was having another episode of stomach pains. But I made it through. HOWEVER I sneezed once yesterday and within 2 hours my nose was sneezing like I had a feather tickling it, eyes were running like water, ear and throat hurt. Oh yeah. A spring cold. gotta love it. On another subject I was on the phone with my mother on Friday night, and all of a sudden. I heard a "pop". My computer bit the dust. No power, no nothing. I figure after 10 years it was about time for it to die. So I'm thinking I'm going to be buying myself a computer for my birthday. I don't need top of the line. I can get some pretty good refurbished ones with warranty. Shopping here I come. ;) Hope this week goes by as fast as last week did. I need a weekend to re-coup! ;) |
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| Forcing Yourself |
| 04.22.05 (5:10 am) |
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Sometimes in life you force yourself to do things just because they need to be done. But where is the line when you force yourself, but you know deep down it was wrong? I forced myself to do something yesterday that I hate myself for today. No I didn't commit murder or anything like that, But I wish I could have vanished. I did this because I caved in. I was so sick and tired of the situation always being thrown in my face I finally told myself just do it now and get it over with. But after all was said and done, I felt worse. So until I get out of this funk that I'm in. I won't force myself to feel worse than I already do. Some people won't like it, but tough shit. I'm just so tired I don't want to fight it anymore. So my agenda this weekend is to do LOTS of laundry, (whoopee), Preparing for a garage sale, I think maybe some baking and chick flicks. Sounds like a plan! |
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| I hate Mondays |
| 04.11.05 (6:02 am) |
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What a wonderful weekend I had. It’s hard to be sarcastic when typing. The mood doesn’t convey the true feeling, however I will try my best. Last night my bf, Garth and I had a brief conversation. It all started when I explained to him, that if he truly wanted to buy a house, we need seriously sit down and plan a budget, save, etc. I told him “realistically you should be able to buy a house by the time you’re 40.” Which by the way is only next year. His response was; “well what do you want?” I told him: ‘Better yet what do YOU want, I know what I want. If you want to buy a house on your own, I won’t bring this topic up again and you can do it all by yourself!” At this point, I was starting to see a huge conversation about to start. I was right. From the previous topic of buying a house, it turned into him admitting that he thinks it was a mistake that we moved in together. He had free rent where he was living, but he kinda wanted more space, and when someone needs help, he tries to help. I had to remind him right then and there, that “don’t do me any favours! I would have found my own place to live. This place is costing me more than it is if I were living on my own! I gave you more than a few chances to change your mind.” (this was only the first layer of cake) So I come and sit down on the chair. Let’s talk. Because of what has happened over the past few months, him breaking his leg, me in a funk (mild depression) I have lost my drive for intimacy. So I went on some hormonal replacement just this week, I’m hoping that it will bring back my drive. I even asked him if he wanted to go to couples therapy! Garth says he needs sex. He needs a lot. So if I’m not going to put out, he would like to have a mistress. NOT A FUCKING CHANCE IN HELL. I said: “As long as we live in the same place, in the same bed, you are not going to sleep with someone else!” “And once my meds kick in and I want to have sex with you, YOU will NOT, ABSOLUTLY NOT be having sex with anyone else. You want to sleep with other people. I won’t be here. You can move back to your old apartment and I will move on.” |
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| Motorcycle Accident |
| 04.10.05 (6:20 am) |
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As per my last post. I was in a fairly chipper mood. Even though the parent's inlaws were coming for a visit. Well, my bf and I went to his brothers place for the Birthday-BBq. It was his dad's and sister-in-laws b-day. Let me set up the picture: for story sake I've used false names to explain. The parent's(ma & pa), my bf (Garth), my bf's brother (John), John's wife (Marie). It was an absolutely gorgeous day out. Seeing that Garth and his brother John ride motorcycles, it was the perfect day for a ride. It was mid afternoon when Garth, his ma & pa and I showed up at John & Marie's place for the afternoon festivities. John was out on a quick motorcycle ride and would be back shortly. Time kept passing by and Marie was saying "when he gets back I'm going to kill him". More time went by. Marie and I went into the house and there was a message on the machine from the hospital saying that John had "fallen" off his motorcycle and they are running some x-rays and tests as a precaution. So Marie and I grab our purses and I drive her to the hospital. We told Garth but Marie didn't say anything to the parents because they would have wanted to come with us. ( they are super protective ) For all we knew, John could have been standing outside the hospital waiting for us. So we get there. Track him down. He's in X-ray. Turns out he has a few broken ribs and a chipped ankle bone. We were there for about 3 hours. I made a few phone calls home to give them the update. Garth finally told ma & pa, once we know how he was. Marie and I poured John into the front seat of my car and gingerly drove him home. THANK HEAVENS! It could have been worse! He's in a lot of pain. Good thing for percasets. We don't know what shape the bike is in. We can't get access to it until Monday. Marie had her moments. (understandable) but she's okay now. She now jokes when he heals and is better, she's gonna kill him. Later in the evening I took marie out to the drugstore to get John's pain meds. Shee needed a drag on a dooby. I got her away from the chaos at home. (by this time John is in and out of sleep) We get back, she's more calm (gee no kidding) and the evening progresses fine. As for the parent's they are freaking. Telling the boys they are not allowed to ride their bikes ever again and sell them! PLEASE! These are MEN of 37 & 38 years old! They are not teenagers. I said now is not the time to put it in their face. John is out of it due to the pain meds. Bitch at them tomorrow! I know parents will ALWAYS worry about their kids. But when they still preach to them when they are almost 40, it's time to tell them to get lost. Thank you for your concern. But it's not your life. |
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| It's Friday! |
| 04.08.05 (4:58 am) |
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I was hoping to have a little quiet time this morning in the office so I could post something. Alas it's Friday I needed to stop for gasoline and got to the office later than expected. This may be a short but sweet post. I really have nothing to "rant" about today. I feel pretty good. Could it be that it's Friday, and the weekend forecast is to be sunny and mild! Can't complain there. HOWEVER, (isn't there always) My boyfriends parents are coming for the weekend. I can't avoid them this time. It is his dad's birthday and his sister-in-law too. I was able to avoid Easter. Oh well. I'll just make sure the alcohol is fully stocked. I will try to have a great weekend. I will try to remain positive and chipper around the most toxic people I know. Come Monday my outlook may be different from today! I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend! |
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| Fire From My Window |
| 03.31.05 (5:05 am) |
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It's interesting when there's a fire, people come running to watch the destruction of a building. Last evening, just before six o'clock. An industrial building that recycles wood and plastic for new decking caught fire. The smoke could be seen from many kilometers. It is now almost fourteen hours later and the fire crews are still there. Approximately 150 of Toronto's finest were battling the 6 alarm blaze. The news reports that it may take several days to completely extinguish the fire. Not to mention that the Ministry of the Environment is testing the air quality and the water. With a recyling plastics, could be toxic. So, on my way to work this morning. I need to drive past the street that has been blocked off due to mentioned fire. My office is one block away from it. Needless to say it's still smokey in this area. With the sun rising it looked eerie. So today, instead of being bored and taking the occasional glace out my window to watch traffic, I can watch the fire crews on extension ladders still pouring water on building. MMMMM firemen.. Sorry had a brief day dream there.. Of course when I arrived at the office, people were standing on the side of the road still watching. Meanwhile drivers were trying to reach their office destination. I felt like saying, "Okay people, you can watch the firemen, but get off the road!" The main part of the fire was least night. It's now only smoldering. No more 4 story flames. So there's my excitment in my life right now. MMM firemen. Yummy! Great Job to all the workers fighting this fire! And I feel sorry for the people who lost their job in a flash. Dealing with Employment Insurance will be a bugger! |
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| Take this Job |
| 03.29.05 (12:16 pm) |
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You know, it’s days like today that make me want to say “Take my job and shove it!” and go outside to play in this wonderful weather. Not only would it get me away from the freakazoids at work, but I could be outside, sitting in the sun, reading, washing my car or even antique shopping. Hell all three! Speaking of freakazoids. That’s my new name for the kids at work. I had a 5 minute meeting with my boss with regards to the temper tantrums, hissy fits, bitch spells that his sister Blondzilla was having. I put it to him directly. “My life is stressful enough. I don’t need this child’s play at work. I resign, re-neg my proposal. If people are going to get their knickers in a knot. I don’t want it. Lets go back to the way things were.” He thanked me for being adult about it. He said he has enough shit disturbers at work. But he doesn’t want my window of opportunity closed. Blondzilla thinks that I don’t know enough. That may true. I haven’t been doing this job as long as her. BUT in my defense, when is the right time for me to go through that open window? (apparently not now) So in a nut shell, they are still telling me to eat shit politly,, but instead of a plateful it’s now a half. Still sucks, no increase in salary. I guess I wouldn’t be so pissed off if they paid me what this job is worth. |
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| Survey |
| 03.25.05 (11:39 am) |
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Stole this from goins007 who stole it from masked15 2. Abby (SCA name)
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| The Return |
| 03.23.05 (5:25 am) |
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Flight arrival 3:50 PM. Arrival at office? Maybe 4:30PM. The Bosses are returning. Everyone resume work! Or atleast look like you're wokring. ;) If we didn't do work while they bosses were gone. They would know in a heart beat. Where I work, it's not one of those places where you can screw around. There is always work to be done and the office snitch always tells. So back to the bosses return. That means I'll have 30 to 45 minutes to add up all the total sales. He's obsessed with numbers. Which means for tonight I may not get home till 6:pm. Oh well. Or maybe if his flight is late.. I may not see him until tomorrow. I think I'd like that option better. I'm just not feeling all that hot today. Feeling kinda achy and tired. I would love to go home right now and curl up under a blanket and sleep. But I don't get paid for sick days. So I am here... for now. |
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| Things That Bother Me |
| 03.22.05 (9:21 am) |
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I will more than likely post another blog later today. But right now I need to vent. If I get it off my chest, I will feel better and most likely not be charged with murder for killing co-workers! ha ha ha. So here are just a few things that bother me. 1. Office politics. I don't play them and never will. That could be why the owner likes me, I don't bs. 2. The Pillsbury Dough boy. He's just way too happy for something that has no genitals! 3. Not being able to do what I want to do when I want to do it. Yes it may sound childish, but this is a rant so...:P 4. Mechanics who think women know nothing about cars! Some don't know, but this one DOES! 5. When people ask for the time they point to their wrist. Do I point to my crotch when I ask where the washroom is??? NO! 6. People who think they are all "that". I'm sorry not everyone wants to buy Designer Labels. It doesn't mean that they are poor, it just means they have common sense! 7. My mother. I love her dearly. But I don't have to be married to be happy. I just need money and a sugar Daddy. 8. Speaking of Money. Whoever said "Money Doesn't Buy You Happiness" is bs. They don't shop in the right places! 9. It's sunny outside. Absolutely gorgeous! Spring fever is setting in and I'm stuck inside the office!! 10. When opening a container of nuts, the warning labels says;" May contain nuts". Go Figure. So have a good day all! |
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| My |
| 03.19.05 (3:51 pm) |
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Sorry Folks,, I had a momentary laps of judgement. I had posted a picture,, but it was a limited time offer. ;) Maybe next time I'll keep them up longer! new pictures to come Cheers! |
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| Rich & Poor At the Same Time |
| 03.18.05 (7:46 am) |
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:D First Off!! YEAH!! I got my loan! Thank Heavens for that,, Now that I have enough money to cover my bf and my bills,, I am also 5 g's in the hole.. pay back at a comfortable rate of 90 dollars bi-weekly for the next 2 to 3 years, It's a variable loan, so I can pay it out at anytime with no penalty. The next time I wanted to go to the bank for a loan was to buy a newer car... Oh well maybe next year. The agenda for this weekend is to pay bills, buy groceries and a hair cut,, that's about 4 months past due.(the hair cut I mean, not the bills) I have also planned on cleaning the windows in the house. I never got around to it when we moved in, (for obvious reasons) and now that Spring Equinox is this weekend, time to tidy up the place. Dirty windows drive me nuts! On top pf that I should be able to sleep well, knowing that I will still have a roof over my head for the next few months. :D Who knows, I just may even treat myself to a manicure and a soak in a bubble bath this weekend!! ;) Wahoo! |
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| Silence |
| 03.17.05 (10:40 am) |
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:D Happy Day. At work, I mean. SILENCE. The "crew" has left for almost a week. (insert happy dance) This includes blondzilla. As I mentioned in my previous blog, there has be a change in her personality ever since I decided to stand up for myself. I spoke with the president and said I wasn't going to put up with her crap. He agreed. Okay this is good, now will he do anything about it? Well today her disposition was almost a 180 from yesterday. Lets see how long this lasts for. I figure that I will continue to kill them with kindness. It will eventually work. So my next venture, my attempt to get a loan. It's in progress.. I'm keeping everything crossed that I get this.. We need it to help cover bills while the insurance company decides when it will issue the next disability payment. Wish me luck. Overall, a better day. :D |
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| VERY BAD DAY |
| 03.14.05 (12:44 pm) |
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I am getting to the point where I’m really pissed off at the people at work. I love my job, I just don’t like how the people are treated. Like Me!! I was basically told to politely east shit and continue to. I don’t want to be Blondzilla’s assistant! I am doing her work and she’s getting paid for it. Sure why don’t I just bend over and take some more!! ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGG!!!! So what have I done to rectify this situation?? Plenty. I have not only continued my doing my job, but exceed it. I am continuing to do Blondie’s work, be the Presidents travel agent, assistant, problem solver, data entry, and customer service. You think I’m joking?? Ask any one of my co-workers. We all wear multiple hats here and we all get the shaft. So what am I to do?? Can’t quit yet. I love my job. 2, financially I can’t. So I will have to continue to eat shit. Need to go see a dentist too.. bad tooth ache. On to my personal life..... Don’t ask.. Yippie Kai Yeah!! God I hate my life right now.
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| What Kind Of TROUBLE Will I Get Myself Into? |
| 03.07.05 (5:23 am) |
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The weekend has come and gone. Too quickly might I add. On Saturday my bf and I ventured off in my "Please God let me get there and back safely" mobile. (my car) In town it runs fine,, just when you're dodging potholes at 115 km per hour on the 401,, it's a little nerve-wracking. ANYWAY so we went to one of our Medieval Event's in Woodstock. I had been quite resilient to go. I've been backing away from that crowd due to lack of interest. I get bored quickly and a lot of people do the same thing over and over again. But I went. 1) Out of a sense that I haven't been out to see friends in almost a year. 2) I would have never heard then end of it from bf. " I never get to go anywhere anymore!" kinda sounds like a kid. It was okay. :D I wasn't feeling that great but I did get to see some people that I realized I missed desperately. I ran into a male friend (we will call him Grim), that three years ago it "could have been" him or the one bf I'm with now. Three years ago we were in different places and just didn't work. He was already kinda dating someone, I lived in a different town...BUT this tall dark drink of water came and said hello to me. With one of his ALWAY welcoming smiles. Gave each other a hug. Asked what we had been doing etc etc etc. He pointed out that "I'm sorry I haven't emailed, I'm not living with my EX. Makes it hard to keep in touch." HMMMMMM!! Ex you say? I thought to myself. Grim gently pointed it out a few times through out the day. Since he has moved, he gave me new contact information so we could at least keep in contact. (the trouble I COULD get myself into:) I'm thinking very cool. Don't get me wrong, I love my bf. If I didn't I wouldn't be with him.. (Yeah I hear all of the peanut gallery telling me over and over to break it off with him) REMEMBER not yet. I'm still in it till November. I digress. I was very happy to see old friends. Though nothing may ever come of our casual conversations and the warm smiles. It just did this girls lack of self esteem real good! I'm smiling now just thinking of it. My bf also had a good time. He hadn't seen so many people in months. I know it did him good. Funny though, on the way there he and I had a conversation. Things that needed to be said. Well most things. Like "I need you to help me get over this hump of being not happy, help me make me feel better about my self".. etc etc etc. I also told him it bugs me when he ALWAYS make comments, noises gestures when he sees a scantily clad women on TV, magazines etc. I understand guys will always look. But when you always make comments on how good other women look and never get one compliment on how you look?? it tends to eat away at a woman’s self esteem. His reply, I don't see why you won't let me play with other women if you won't play with me. (at this point I wanted to turn around and take him home) I calmly replied, I believe in a monogamous relationship. And you know that! I can't believe you said that!" You realize that it's not all about you! I need some support too. So needless to say, the drive wasn't that great on the way there. On the way home was a completely different story. As was yesterday. He realized that he has more mobility than first thought. He actually drove yesterday. He now doesn't feel like he's so confined and I'm not his warden anymore. It was a weekend of ups and downs. This time more ups. I'm hoping this is a trend that will stick. Until another day. |
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| My Resgination |
| 03.04.05 (4:34 pm) |
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I may have posted this before, but it's still rings true!! MY RESIGNATION I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an ADULT. I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of an 8 year-old again. I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four-star restaurant. I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks. I want to think M&M's are better than money because you can eat them. I want to drink Kool-Aid, eat lemonheads and red hots with my friends. I don't want to change clothes because I got a little dirty and my friends didn't care cause they were even dirtier than me. I want to enjoy everyday like its summer vacation. I want to return to a time when life was simple. When all you knew were colors, multiplication tables, and TV show theme songs, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care. All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset. I want to think the world is fair. That everyone is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible. I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things again, like a new hot wheel car every Saturday. I want to live simple again. I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more illness, and loss of loved ones. I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination and mankind. I want to "dream of jeannie", and "bewitched". I want to go to "fantasy island" and take a trip on "the love boat". I want to be in the roller derby and actually believe the three stooges are real. So...here's my checkbook and My car-keys, my ; credit card bills and my T4 statements, my pager, my cellphone, my palm pilot, my fax machine and my dvd player and last but not least my mortgage book. I am officially resigning from adulthood. And if you want to discuss this further, you'll have to catch me first... cause............. & nbsp; "TAG YOU'RE IT AND YOU HAVE COOTIES" |
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| I Can Smell Spring |
| 03.01.05 (11:16 am) |
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SNOW SNOW SNOW. Environment Canada was correct. We got snow, lots of it. But you know what? I can smell spring in the air. Just before the white crap started to fall yesterday, I took a deep breath. SMILE. Spring will be here in 3 weeks. I can feel it! I am still seriously considering going back to school. I really want to be a Gemmologist. I absolutly love stones, in the raw state to finished cut state. I love jewellery too. Almost every woman does. Do you think I have any?? No, not really. No signature pieces. Like an engagement ring or wedding band. I can't do earrings anymore. Long story short; keyloid scar tissue. I would like to expand my jewellery wardrobe. Neclaces, bracelettes. Which I only have one neclace and ZERO bracelettes. I am not asking for much. Really I'm not. I have little to no accessories. I'm kinda a plain Jane. So I juest need a little bit more. ;) I've come to realize two things will never let a woman down. Jewellery and Chocolate. ;)
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| Calm Before the Storm |
| 02.28.05 (6:33 am) |
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Monday, 10:15 AM. Environment Canada has issued a Winter Storm watch for Southern Ontario. Here is the actual information: "ISSUED BY ENVIRONMENT CANADA STRONG WINDS MAY BECOME MORE GENERAL ON WEDNESDAY IN THE WAKE OF THE STORM CENTRE CAUSING BLOWING SNOW..WITH SNOWSQUALLS OFF OF LAKE HURON INTO THE TRADITIONAL SNOWBELT REGIONS ALSO EXPECTED. TRAVELLERS SHOULD EXERCISE EXTREME CAUTION. DRIVING CONDITIONS ARE EXPECTED TO DETERIORATE QUICKLY TONIGHT AND REMAIN HAZARDOUS THROUGH TUESDAY AND WEDNESDAY DUE TO LOW VISIBILITY AT TIMES IN HEAVY SNOW AND LOCAL BLOWING SNOW. THIS WATCH MAY BE UPGRADED TO A WARNING AS THE SITUATION WARRANTS AND THE STORM GETS CLOSER. " So I had friends come over on the weekend. Phred and his lady, My boyfriends brother and wife and my long time best friend "Joe". His wife was to come with him, however she's feeling a little under the weather, being 7 months pregnant and all. It was really good to see Joe again. He helps me to focus when things go awry. I miss him. We live in the same city and only see each other twice a year. Oh well. On another note. I'm getting tired of the same thing. What do I mean? the way life is. I feel like I keep hitting my head against a brick wall. So I try a different route. Same thing. I'm getting screwed over at work. Getting screwed by the government.. ARG!! Ok there's my rant. Have a good day everyone! P.S. I wouldn't oppose to a really nice "Sugar Daddy" right now. |
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